say crack again

if there was a person i’d want to live with, it would be eddie. but in his house which has an amazing kitchen, filled with amazing food and ice cream. it also has tons of hookah fun. and a pool. and its so cutely divided.

but the best is eddie, because he’s the only person besides paula that watches disney channel as much as i do. and even when he doesn’t like a show, he still watches it. and he has all that mean, sarcastic humor in him which rocks.

i can’t believe he’s leaving :( but im gonna enjoy him and his house while i can.

there’s obviously a higher being or energy making sure that i don’t keep doing stupid things. it’s ALWAYS something and i think i need to start taking it as a sign.

i don’t speak french.

everybody’s so inviting
they’ve got it in for me, I know
it’s not that I don’t really love you
it’s just that I don’t really know
the hateful things you think you want to say
time will turn them into jokes

there’s always those days where you just wake up feeling the wrong way. you’re irritable. you cry for the dumbest things. everything you usually do suddenly sucks. even food, which seems to be the universal happy maker, sucks. i’m having one of those days. i think its necessary, after all, there’s a lot i constantly overlook, ignore, and distract myself from and it gets exhausting. 

i still haven’t done anything in my to do list.

BLAH!

edit: nevermind, i enrolled for the SLS class i wanted, but dassit.

i feel as though every time i write in here everything seems to wrong. it’s stupid, i know, but it just happens that way. i say i’m happy and content and within an hour my life heads down a road of failure and no fun. so i won’t state my mood or state of being. all i can really do right now is make a list of what is to be done.

my list on what needs to be done:

1. get haircut

2. stop obsessing over shia la beouf

3. start eating veggies

4. read assigned reading for FIU

5. enroll for the SLS class i actually want

6. drive on a busy street

7. stop hating people

8. fix my room

9. watch big daddy with paula

10. spend a day with karla

11. enjoy andrea murillo

12. get a juandreina picture

13. get a cat

14. buy an awesome hoodie

15. get a job

16. watch a really scary movie

17. stop doubting myself

18. keep being awesome

half of those things i don’t really HAVE to do, but i want to. so there you go :)